not because my emuna is shaken
But because it's taken me a while to sort through the darkness
and sift through the shards of broken hearts
There's a tornado -that began with covid and has been gathering momentum-
objects are falling
people are falling
Each person, we learn in mishna, is a whole world
I think about an individual's power
You are an entire world
How are our thoughts, feelings, or actions crushing us-
individually and, as a result, collectively?
I begin with my thoughts.
Throughout the day I notice negative self talk
I am crushing myself without even knowing it.
My own world is self destructing
Can I turn it around?
To rebuild- it will take going beyond
lifting the bricks with my bare hands
and placing them in their proper places
so that the next time I fall - it will be-
*"in love with Hashem" and each of His creations-
|An indiviual's war|
* Devorah Yaffa Singer stated in her Lights of Emuna workshop that instead of all this falling- we should redirect our fall to "fall in love with Hashem"- what a concept!