Before the anxiety grows too great, I breathe deeply, recall that with this breath Hashem is giving me another chance at life and the I can turn/ and return- teshuva to Him. The first clarity I need is that He loves me and is waiting for me- forever.
Next, I look at who I am in this minute and notice what I love about myself and thank Hashem for those. Then, I notice the things that I am not proud of :( and that's where my work lies. I can't remember all the things I've done wrong this year but the result of them is sitting with me right now- as a part of me.
Now, I observe the thoughts, feelings and actions that I don't want to hold onto. I admit to them, I regret them. I say "I am sorry Hashem for doing, thinking, feeling...(fill in the blank with your own- trust me you don't want mine;). I don't want to do/feel/think these things in the future. Please help me to be true to who I really am."
(If you want more clarity with this, our phone chaburah will IY'H be meeting at 11:00 am NY time this Monday- what can be better than group teshuva...or more embarrassing... therefore, there will be no recording.:)))
Wishing you a beautiful Shabbos and a Gmar Chasima Tova,
Love, Aviva Ruth
By Tzvi Freeman
Teshuvah doesn’t mean repentance. Repentance means regretting who you’ve become.
Teshuvah means returning to who you truly are.
Teshuvah, in English, is recovery.
Recovering a lost inner self.
On Yom Kippur, we are all in recovery.
For any body still feeling anxious....
Thank you, Ilana Yehudis for sending this: